Addictions

Loneliness and happiness 
both feelings fight, invade my space  

Voice in my head I can’t control 
and this devil conquers my soul

Esteem is gone and so are you,
 a cure I’ll find I promise you

But when the darks trouble my calm,
 I step away to this realm

This kingdom place where I feel fine, 
when all it takes is just a line

On these clouds far away I fly, 
I will be gone just this one time

When I land on Mother Earth, 
can’t see clearly what life is worth

Your forgiveness I will implore, 
for now this glass I will just pour

Such behavior I cannot stop, 
I say sipping the last clear drop

So I stumble and try to stand, 
need to fix this and take command

But now this voice I can detect, 
everything else I just neglect 

This hole I dig and food and crave, 
it’s a circle my death I pave

The fridge open while I get high, 
on sugar rush I learn to fly  

Heard you whisper in the corner,
 I promise you I’ll get stronger

My baby boy come drive with me, 
no liquor left in my body 

Seat at the back and don’t be scared, 
mommy’s sober you will be spared

These traffic lights I didn't see, 
wouldn't hurt you my sweet baby

I am an addict and I love you, 
please forgive me if I killed you